Currently Listening Singularity By Mae see related

October it is.  I always have a hard time saying goodbye to summer.  It could have been the crappiest summer ever and I would still want it to keep going for a little while longer.  I think this is due mostly to my dislike of being ridiculously cold.  Not my favorite thing.  As great as October and Fall are, they just remind me that the earth is tilting in a direction that leaves me yearning for the warmth of summer again.  As with every year, I'll get over it.

This day marks a change in my job situation, as I transition away from some of the duties that I have been performing at my church, and continue the optimistic yet urgent need for another source of income.  The "gameplan" was to have another job in place to keep my budget firmly on the tracks for now, but nothing of consequence has presented itself.  I am left to keep doing what I always do - pray and keep working hard. 

In the midst of all of this falderal, I am still content.  I mean, everyone has their moments, but for the most part I haven't minded reciting my high school's address or discussing the job duties I performed for my employers eight years ago with every hiring business in Newark.  I think it makes it even more worth it when you find a job that really fits.  I'm not sure what that looks like right now, but hopefully someday it will make sense. 

In the meantime, life is still amazing.  I want to really love the people in my life.  No relationship grows on its own.  You have to pay attention to other's needs and give as much as you can.  Give when it's not easy.  Give when you're hurting.  Give because you can.  It's easy to stay safe, but I don't want to realize when my life is over that my comfort got in the way of God's work.  May I never waste the gift that is today.